So why must our Crafts feel the same?
So often within pagan and witchcraft communities, I run face-first into the brick wall of "love and light." Don't get me wrong: If your practice is full of positivity and happiness, and that is truly the direction you seek, I applaud you. That is your choice.
But your choice isn't mine.
If I wanted a spiritual or religious path that taught me to love fully and entirely, to hug everyone and move forward with the best, most positive of intentions at all times, I have a wide array of selection that does not include my version of witchcraft. I chose this route because I am a violent storm over a turbulent sea. I don't want to clear the storm; I want to learn how to ride the waves. I chose this path because I am a raging wildfire. I don't want to put the fire out because what good is barren land to me? I want to control that fire and utilize it. I chose this path because I am not always good. I am not always bad. Sometimes I just am. But sometimes I'm terrible and sometimes I'm honorable. I chose this path because I believe all of that is the spectacular combination that makes me who I am.
My witchcraft is raw and uninhibited, free to experience the entirety of the human spectrum. It is love and hatred, rapture and rage. It is every emotion in between, every gray-area, the entire range of feeling. It is who I really am, not who I wish to be or what I think I should act like. My witchcraft encapsulates my true self.
Through my craft, I have become comfortable with my both my successes and my faults. I have learned to embrace both as a very real and necessary part of my witchery. It is by facing who we truly are that we learn what we can become. And what we can become does not need to be rainbows and clouds of cotton candy. Life is not rainbows and clouds of cotton candy. Life is chaos, sometimes in the best way and sometimes in the worst. By being able to face ourselves in the most real way, we are able to utilize our weaknesses as strengths, our flaws as useful traits. We are able to persevere. And this is the heart of my craft.
I do not put up a facade of happiness and light in my witchcraft. I embrace the unclean and unhappy along the clean and good. I do not let negative emotions simply roll off of me. I am not a suede jacket sprayed in hydrophobic chemical so that I stay perfectly neat and new regardless of what I experience. I am a dusty, dirty, worn out jacket that has weathered the storms and enjoyed the sun. I have been tossed, stepped on, caught on door handles, ripped, splattered with food and yet, somehow, I am still the most comfortable, functional jacket you have in your closet - because of my craft.
Because of this, I do not gently ease you into my rituals or carefully dance on eggshells for my spell work. I do not roll my lessons in sugar. I do not offer my witchcraft up easily nor do I practice with just anyone.
If you want love and light, and solely that, there's certainly nothing wrong with that. But you will not find that here.
If you want raw, unadulterated honesty of a witch in her craft, you're in the right place.