Friday, December 18, 2015

Final Random Update of 2015!

Gosh, how that title makes me both excited and anxious all at once! We're almost there, folks. Just two more weeks of December and 2015 is over and out. Not that I won't miss some of the amazing things that happened, though I certainly won't miss all the moving. But enough of that. A 2015 Year in Review will come soon enough.  By now, you know how it goes: Once I get all of my Yule posts out, I start planning my 2016 goals publicly in a way that might help those wanting to do the same. That's all coming with time.  I've already began to sketch out what I want 2016 to look like and, barring any sudden moves, it's going to be pretty spectacular!


I want to apologize for not having many posts leading up to Yule. They're coming, but they may be a little late.  Mostly, I'm struggling a bit in the health department. As most of you know, I have something called Multiple Autoimmune Syndrome (my best description for it in short is non-lupus lupus).  Right now, it's kicking my rear.  I typically don't use it as an excuse and do everything to fight the chronic illness stigma, but I'm exhausted.  Right after the housewarming party, I came down with a brutal respiratory infection. I was on a nebulizer for the majority of last Saturday, which was fairly reminiscent of the cold I had back on NYE 2013-2014.  If some of my circlemates didn't have similar health issues, I might have ended up back in the ER, so I really have them to thank for saving me.  Then, the antibiotics for the respiratory infection triggered a hiatal hernia flare up that I'm still battling.  I spent all of Tuesday in excruciating pain on the bathroom floor; the same pain that led me to seek out a GI specialist and go through testing for five months in early 2014 where I was diagnosed with Celiac disease too.  Hernia flares are, for me, pain - not nausea but pain - that makes you throw up and the throwing up doesn't solve the pain so you end up in an endless loop of dry heaving and weeping.  I'm on medication for it now, but I've probably had maybe 1200 calories in the past 72 hours. I'm not entirely sure how much of that has stayed down.  Mornings are the worst, because laying down can trigger hernia spasms, so I'll wake up feeling worse than when going to bed. But I find it impossible to sleep sitting up, so I have little choice.  The fear of my morning pain gives me anxiety when I try to go to sleep and I end up staying up until weird hours trying to avoid everything. Hence writing this at 4:30 in the morning on a Friday.

Just dealing with MAS on its own is a daily chore to which I've grown accustomed.  When you throw in something like an infection, everything becomes much more complicated.  Add in the fact that I'm writing and leading the Yule ritual with two weeks to prep, 90% of which has been tossed away thanks to said infection and... Well, you get the picture.

I'll survive. I always do. I'm on the right medications and I'm starting to feel a bit better.  But my current focus has been almost entirely on the Circle of Fountains Yule ritual, meaning I have little time for blogging right at the moment.



Any down time I've had has mostly been spent on the couch in the theater watching my husband play a game on the projector. That's been almost a nightly routine for us anymore.  I think he enjoys the use of the giant screen, and I've always loved to watch him play games, even if it's games I regularly play myself.


Plus, it gives me a chance to cuddle with my familiars, all of which have been feeling the pull of my health. That's the thing about having familiars versus pets. Pets will want you to feel better. Familiars, as a spiritual extension of yourself, can't do anything but stew in your misery with you.

Obviously, as a disclaimer, if your animal is having health issues, you should get them to a vet.  Don't just think it's a "spiritual bond" because you don't feel well either. For example, pet owners often share food with their pets and, if you both end up with food poisoning, your pet may not survive it. Just, you know, facts of life.  Safety over spirituality, always.  Be discerning.

That being said, that's not the case here and it breaks my heart to see them all laying around like I am, often right there with me.  Sometimes, my driving force to feel better is them.  I would give anything to pick my stomach up off the floor, shove it back in where it belongs and feel normal just so I can see them run and play again.  We'll get there.

I hate that my final random update for the year is such a sour one! I wish I had better news, or at least more relaxing news, but I felt like I owed an explanation to my silence. I do have photos taken of the recent Sabbat Box for the solstice, so those will be coming very soon.  Of course, my circle's Yule celebration is this Sunday along with Liithi Lushede's public ritual, so you'll get both of those next week. I can't guarantee a Yule altar for this year. Mostly, I just can't find a good place for it.  I may have to invest in an alternative altar that I can place easier. Maybe a wall shelf or something. For right now, I'm lacking a good location and something has got to give with how off I've been feeling. The altar may be the thing that gets cut.

Once we get through Yule, expect my 2016 goal posts.  Then we get into January and things should hopefully go a little smoother!

Talk to you soon, dear readers!

14 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear you are not feeling well. As soon as all my stressed died with the end of the semester and the passing of a major standardized test, my body shut down too. Currently fighting a respiratory infection as well, but mine is viral. Ugh! Been using my netti pot every couple of hours when I can and breathing in the steam from a pot of water with some tea tree oil in it. It's working. In just 3 days I am feeling significantly better.

    I hope you get well soon and have a wonderful Yule! Sending positive engery your way. :)

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    1. Yikes! Stuff like that rarely works for me. I have a phone-in antibiotic for specifically this reason, which helped quite a bit. I might have been sick for weeks, but the antibiotic cut it down to a week. The stomach thing is a little less fun though. I got in to see my GP yesterday and they're putting me through some tests before they confirm what's going on. In the meantime, they gave me prescriptions for intestinal spasms and stomach acid to see if it won't at least let me eat. So far, so good! Hopefully I'll be back up and running by Christmas, or at least New Year's.

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  2. I hope you feel much better soon! Have a wonderful Yule! <3

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    1. Thank you so much! I hope your Yule was fantastic as well!

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  3. I'm fairly new to your blog, so forgive me if you've discussed this, but have you ever tried Quantum biofeedback? I was highly, HIGHLY skeptical, but after my first visit I couldn't deny how accurate that wonderful little machine was. It's helped a lot with my own health issues, which are autoimmune as well. It's not at all invasive; it's four straps and a head band that the technician straps on, and the machine reads your vibrations and resonance. It's kind of this wonderfully awesome combination of science and metaphysical. It can actually diagnose diseases or causes of a disease (though it isn't technical legal for the technician to tell you that so...*wink wink*) as well as give spiritual feedback (for example, it can identify if emotional trauma is the cause of a certain ailment or even give you healing messages for you to meditate on). I know it sounds entirely strange, but if you're interested at all I highly suggest you look into it. As I said, I'm pretty left of center and even I was skeptical. But wow is it amazing!

    Good luck in your healing!!!

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    1. While I appreciate the suggestion, I find that none of the new age, psuedo-science healing stuff ever works. In fact, it's become a social faux pas to suggest such things in the chronic illness communities I'm apart of - just a heads up should you ever look for support for yours. I went to the doctor today and picked up a prescription to help calm intestinal spasms, which has worked splendidly. So I'll probably stick to my doctors, their dietary suggestions and their medication.

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  4. Big hugs. Take care of yourself, plenty of rest and come back strong in 2016 ! xXx

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  5. No fun to end the year being sick! I hope you are back to yourself soon and that you had an awesome Yule!

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    1. My GP gave me medication for intestinal spasms and acid, which has helped immensely so far. They're running me through some tests to confirm what they think is going on, but I should be back on my feet by New Year's at latest, thank goodness.

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  6. I hope you feel better soon, and have a very blessed Yule with your circle!

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    1. Thank you so much! I truly did. I hope your Yule was fantastic as well!

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